H-U-R-T :'(

dear hurt...

why did you have to be so exist in someone's feeling?

why did you have to be so cruel to make tears fall down at someone's face?

why did you have to bring an injured to someone's heart?

well, i think it is not a matter if a doctor could heal it

but the WORST part is that IT WAS NOT!

no one even doctor can heal it as well

i hate feeling so HURT

i hate that FEELING!!!

and you know what :

when you're hurt, you want to hurt harder who's hurting you

but then i'll tell you that IT WILL ONLY HURT YOU MORE!

believe me! i don't want to hurt anyone because what hurt them hurt me more :'(

ketika sesuatu yang salah dibenarkan!

pernah merasa bahwa apa yang kamu lakukan itu salah?

pernah merasa bahwa apa yang kamu lakukan gak benar?

pernah merasa bahwa apa yang kamu lakukan itu bukan hal yang baik?

pernah merasa bahwa apa yang kamu lakukan itu sebenarnya melanggar peraturan yang ada?

pernah merasa bahwa apa yang kamu lakukan itu SEHARUSNYA tak kau lakukan?

tapi TETAP SAJA KAU LAKUKAN?

well, sebagian orang pasti pernah mengalami...

dan AKU yah AKU salah satunya :'(

kadang melakukan hal seperti ini bukannya menyenangkan hati tapi malah menambah rasa bersalah

proud of it?

BIG NO!!! 

adanya malah GUILTY PLEASURE 

well, untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang sangat diinginkan memang kadang butuh pengorbanan yang nggak kecil.

termasuk korban perasaan seperti ini. senang mencapai apa yang dimau tapi jauh di lubuk hati terdalam rasa bersalah pun membuncah.

we give you act :)

in live, we do things

some we wish we had never done

some we wish we could reply a million times in our heads

but they all make us be who we are

and in the end, 

they shape every detail about us

if we were to reverse any of them, 

we wouldn't be the person who we are now

so just live! 

make mistakes!

have wonderful memories!

but never ever second guess who you are

where you have been

and most importantly, 

where it is you are going ;)

i find someone :)

i think i've found a REAL FRIEND here hehe...

and she thought me many things trough this year.

she thought me what we called :

friendship, charity, patient, love, respect, and believing in God's 

aku kagum sama dia...

dari luar terlihat rapuh banget

ternyata di dalam dia setegar karang :')

dia satu-satunya teman yang masih berdiri di sampingku sampai sekarang

walau ia tak selalu ada di sana

tapi aku selalu tahu bahwa dia tak akan segan menghampiriku saatku terjatuh 

dia orang yang baik. sahabat yang baik. penyemangat terbaik 

terima kasih atas segala bantuanmu selama ini teman, semoga pertemanan kita tak termakan waktu dan ketamakan :)

me my self and I :)

once i asked  "How do I make many friends???"

and the world said "You have to be pretty"

and i asked more "How do I get a job???"

and the world said "You have to be sexy"

and once again i asked "How do I fall in love???"

and the world said "You have to be beautiful"

but THE WORLD LIES...

I thought that I JUST HAD TO BE MY SELF ;)

stop regreting start to worth it ;)

life is just too short to wake up in the morning with regrets

so, love people who treats you right 

and forget about the ones who don't

and believe...

that everything happens for a reason

if you get a chance, TAKE IT!

if it changes your life, LET IT! 

nobody said that it would be easy

they just promised it would be worth it :)

thank you so much geng :*

ultah kemaren aku nge-pizza hut bareng geng :)

aku yang traktir sih... ya itung-itung ngumpul-ngumpul gitu, hehe....

abis itu nonton Insidious, gileee.... nggak serem tapi setannya sumpah! jelek... haha :p 

tapi two thumbs buat backsound nya, asli ngeri parah !!!

oh iya...

zhaa, yabs, sama fajar co cweetttt banget deh.

aku dikasih kado segala, haha...

emang my best buddies lah :*